We all go through periods in our lives when we can’t see where we are going.
It’s a call of desperation…
It’s a whole lot of sighing…huffing…puffing…
I was and still am in one of those “periods” in my life for the past 5 years. I feel like Abraham who was called by God to follow Him into the Land of Milk and Honey but he didn’t get a map, nor a GPS or a step by step instruction manual to reach his destination. Wait! He didn’t even know where his destination was! But he obeyed God and more importantly trusted Him to take Him there.
Because God is not man to lie. (Numbers 23:19) . That’s the most important lesson I am learning as I walk through this journey.
And its OK to be afraid, but do it afraid anyways.
I have gone through a myriad of emotions and feelings as I treaded this lonely path bravely only because of one factor – the X factor as the world calls it. And that’s God. I know it’s humanely impossible to walk a road of uncertainty for five years if it wasn’t for those moments of hope and encouragement from my God who watches over me and holds my hand as I walk this road – some days with tears welling up in my eyes wondering if I will make it and other days when I just don’t want to walk anymore because I am so tired and exhausted not seeing the fruits of the labor. Then, there are other days when I run like a speedy Gonzalez seeing God assure me and confirming to me that this is the road to His plan and that I will see the light at the end of my tunnel.
Every time I doubt God and worry….worry…worry…worry…worry…endless worry…
God reminds me of the below verses….
Now faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen.
But without faith it is impossible to please him: for he that cometh to God must believe that he is, and that he is a rewarder of them that diligently seek him.
I am currently seeing slivers of light penetrating the darkness as I reach the end of this period of my life, but have you noticed that when you are going to receive a breakthrough from God – that’s when the enemy fights the most with you and tries to crush you, so you can’t get up and fight? Knowing that this battle is being fought by my God is giving me the endurance to finish my final lap. Because at the finish line, I see the materialization of the good plans of God that are kept for me. Oh the joy of seeing that happen! Its blissful! Its abundant! It pure satisfaction! So no devil in hell is going to stop me from being an awesome testimony to the world.